While I prefer my states of perfection
I have not yet perfected staying there
Inevitably I will fall,
and when I do
when I do
when I do...
there are those who see through to me
with love and curiosity
their compassion clears my air
lets me find my way back here
to something that feels like peace, a clarity
others will see something else
that they recognize, or fear
their aversion and dispersion good reason
to drop me here
leave me alone, to find my shameful way home.
Different lessons, but hopefully
in the end
both make me stronger
make amends with what I am.