Another way to see(?)

See Again
(Hold On Hope, "Hope in my Backyard", 2011)

I’ve gotta find another way to go, here

I’ve gotta find another way to be

This mess of confusion, this not-coping nightmare

I cannot allow this to be me, not me

I can’t afford to lose face

I can’t afford the disgrace

Bristles to prickle the people around me

Showing them what I don’t want them to see

I see it, I know it, I can’t seem to fix it

The effort’s beyond little me, just me

But

I can’t afford to lose face

I can’t afford the disgrace

Most don’t forgive all those moments of weakness

Blame is an easy little flame to throw

Smiles hide judgments and whispers that haunt you

A hush and a coldness, silence, a no

So

I can’t afford to lose face

I can’t afford the disgrace

I’ve gotta find another way to go, here

I’ve gotta find another way to see

(well, it's better with the music in my head. fledgling.)